why?

I have had so many people ask me "why?"  Why do you want to do an Ironman? 

I think that at one point during this journey I would have had one answer, but now it is more for myself.  Before, it was about being that role model for my kids.  Showing them that I could do this and if Mom can do an Ironman, they can do anything.  Now, it is almost as if I am chasing something.  Myself.  It is about finding my way that I have lost for so long.  Many days I wake up and wonder "how did I get here?"  Don't get me wrong, I love my family and my husband.  The life I live now, is not what I imagined growing up.  BUT I also never imagined that Ironman would be part of my life either.  So, I am chasing my inner athlete.  That person that I always was growing up - I just lost her for a while.  she was here when I was training and doing IMLOU, but she got lost in the following years. 

I have many things that need to improve prior to this race,  especially my diet.  I have to take this way more serious than I took IMAZ.  I really blew that race, I did not do the training and my diet sucked.  So, here I am today.

Redemption.